Sunday, February 06, 2005
today i was picking ikan bilis and listening to the radio. hmm and there was this song, " all rise" by blue. hmmm... this song really reminded me of my sec 2 life. sighs. still remember the days when my friends and i rush to the canteen to buy food and and walk and chat at the same time back to new foyer to sit down and eat our food. after eating food, we wld either play games such as pepsi cola or the sissors paper stone thingy. or sometimes, we wld bring our own badminton rackets or volleyball to play at the small field and i'll always be the one who runs down to slope into the bushes to retrieve the flyaway ball. "=_-
and yes, it reminded me of the music lessons, though sometimes quite boring, but i enjoyed it, hahaha simply bcos it was relaxing and fun. but i've not been to the music room for YEARS. hais. =S
yeah and den there was another song, i didnt catch the title, but one sentence from the lyrics is " ...we can live twice.." well, i thought there even if human is given another chance to live the second time, at most they wld cherish onli one to two weeks. ok, or months. but it wun last forever. y??? WHY?? bcos humans doesnt learn to cherish. even after they lose it. yes they wld, but onli for a short period of time.. not for long..
and this led me into thinking of another song. "if tomorrow nv comes" well, a very sad song and one of my favourite songs! hehe. well.. if tomorrow really dun come for me, how wld i feel? wld i regret my yesterday at my last moment, or die away peacefully and happily, feeling at ease that i've done everything i'd wanted to?hmm... of cos i wanna die happily... but HOW?? well, the simplest answer is to cherish everything in life. but i can tell u this, i'm a person who doesnt know how to cherish. i don't know how to count my blessing, cos' i've not found my definition for cherish. i dunno wad cherish wld really be like every minute and every second. i onli know how to cherish life at times, depending on the situation.
so, how?? the question comes back and that it, to live happily everyday. its hard, cos there are 2 other emotions that can easily take away your happiness, anger and sadness. haiz. so how to live my life the way i want with NO regretS? i dont know. perhaps i shld just be contented with what i have now, and then i'll be happy, because i dun have high expectations and get back disappointment in return.. hmmm...
yes.. yesterday i was playing dice-a-roo at neopets, and i seemed on a winning streak. but suddenlyt i tot, wad if i lost?? shld i just collect my money and leave? since i've ald recoup my capital. but i decided to continue playing, and suay-ly, i got the skull sign next. which means i lose and the money is all gone. hmm.. once again, LEARN to be contented with wad u have. =)
-when are you
coming back? ;
